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[27 Jul 2006|10:30pm]
[ mood | excited but exhausted ]

I AM COMING HOME TOMORROW!

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[23 Jul 2006|07:57am]
[ mood | sad ]

My grandma died this morning. Less than a year ago my grandpa died. Then a few weeks after that my other grandpa died.

I think I lost about 5 pounds in tears.

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[15 Jun 2006|03:59pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Well we got no choice
All the girls and boys
Makin all that noise
'Cause they found new toys
Well we can't salute ya
Can't find a flag
If that don't suit ya
That's a drag

School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's been blown to pieces

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks

Well we got no class
And we got no principles
And we got no innocence
We can't even think of a word that rhymes

School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's been blown to pieces

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks

Out for summer
Out till fall
We might not go back at all

School's out forever
School's out for summer
School's out with fever
School's out completely

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[09 Jun 2006|09:37pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Tomorrow=LA

Can you say Robertson Boulevard?
Urban?
IVY?


LOVE LOVE LOVE IT

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[30 May 2006|03:10pm]
Today, I wish I could make everyone in the world happy.
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[08 May 2006|10:43pm]
Hello.

So I really should be getting to bed, but I am not tired. But I will be tomorrow morning.


I was just thinking and I know a lot of you say what you are really thinking and feeling, like this is an actual journal. And for me, it is so hard. I don't know why, but it seems like I always put on a happy face and just hide my feelings because it is so hard for me to express them. Also, it is hard for me to say what I really think of myself and all my insecurities. I think I need to though:

I want to be skinnier. What girl doesnt? But saying this is a big deal because I have always been confident with my body. But now I am not.

I am too shy. Not shy maybe. I don't know. I feel like I can't open up to people until I get to know them really well. So many people may think they know me but they don't at all.

I don't like my personality and I don't think I will ever have a boyfriend because, like I have said before, I can't just open up and be myself. I want to but I can't. I don't know why.

I am not pretty enough.

I am so torn on things like drinking. I want to but I know I shouldn't. I think that it is something that God doesn't want me to do and my parents don't want me to do but I do it anyway. And I want to. But I feel so bad. Is it worth it? I don't know. And I am worried for college because I know I will do that stuff. And I just don't know.

I am such a boring person. And it is really hard for me to carry on a conversation with someone I don't know. I don't like talking. It takes so much effort. But for some reason I feel like if I don't talk, then it is so awkward.

I need to be more responsible.

My faith has gone down the drain. There is no use trying to fool anyone. I don't want to go to church. It just isn't a point right now in my life that I want to do. I don't even know if there is a God. And I don't like now knowing. What if we go to church our whole life and believe in this crazy idea that there is a God and there isn't?

I know that you shouldn't have sex before you are married...but what if you aren't married at like 40? Are you supposed to stay a virgin for the rest of your life?

I have this huge fear of someone in my family dying and it nags at me all day. I don't think I could ever live without any one of them.

I just don't know about anything. I hate having questions.

And please don't pity me or anything. And don't try to reassure me about my body or personaltiy, I don't need sympathy comments to raise my self-esteam.
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[05 May 2006|04:53pm]
[ mood | happily relieved ]

YAY. AP TESTS ARE OVER. YAY. YAY. YAY.





YAY.

All I have left is SAT tomorrow morning and I will be a happy person again.








YAY

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[28 Apr 2006|10:56pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Hmm, I just watched shopgirl (which is a movie btw)and I thought it was boring. So don't see it. Because I know you were going to. But don't. Okay.

I feel fat today.

I like Pina Coladas.

I need to sign up for the SAT II's and tonight is the last night but it is 11 and my mom is asleep so I don't know where the credit card is. Hm.

Love you all.

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[15 Apr 2006|03:30pm]
[ mood | happy ]

HEYY

Spring Break Update:

So I left Sunday to go on a college trip which was fabulouso
Claremont McKenna College: Insanely smart people go there, really pretty campus and in a cute town, tour guide: "We really look for very politically opinionated students who enjoy debating about political beliefs and w/e" me: "um, who's our president again?" Basically I couldn't care less about politics, for the most part
Azusa Pacific: Supposedly the "Jesus party school" haha It was really pretty but so small and not a lot of majors that I like
Loyola Marymount: THE MOST PERFECTEST SCHOOL EVER, it is so gorgeous and like 5 minutes from Robertson boulvd/LA, and five minutes from the beach and its big and pretty. Ahh, and it has the biggest gym ever and new buildings. Love it oh so much.

It is so crazy that in a year we will be going to college, it really started to sink in. I can't even believe it, I am so excited.

Okay, so I ordered my prom dress, what do you think?

Today is a good day.

AND Easter is tomorrow, easter = lots o chocolate = lots o fun

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[31 Mar 2006|04:40pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

JUST FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO WERE WORRIED:

I am alive.

Wow, life is busy but I think it is for just about everyone right now. This is my agenda for the weekend:

Tonight: I am just going to hang out. It will be nice not going out anywhere. We sent in some of our old video camera tapes to this company who changes them into DVDs and I have been watching ones from 1992-1994 (In 1992 I was three) So that was fun. For all of you who never have had a baby movie marathan: I would totally recommend it.

Saturday: I need to do a lot of laundry. My room needs a really good thorough cleaning, my car needs desperately to be washed inside and out. I have to go shopping, which I have been saving my money so I am totally looking forward to a little shopping spree, plus I need underwear and call me crazy but I love shopping for underwear. Plus I am excited because this is the first time my mom will let me drive to escondido...yay! Then I think I will go to the beach with some people OR I may go to Alli's sweet vmars party. Of course it is on a day that I am already busy. Of course, but I really want to go.


Sunday: Being that I have my ACT test on April 8, that is pretty much what I am going to be doing all Sunday but I know I won't be motivated enough to study all day even though I need to. Ugh, why do I already have senioritis?


Well, I might as well give a complete update on my life since it will probably be another month or two before you hear from me again!

Hmm, I am playing a lot of tennis and I am on an intense exercise regimen to be a leaner meaner me for prom, because I totally am not going with a date. Haha, btw prom is going to be so beautiful and fun.

School isn't too bad. I know a lot of people, one I particularly have in mind, who are stressed out and basically dying. I am just taking it easy, study when I need to. And it works for me, I am having a good time.

And I just need to take every single one of you out to the desert with me because it is the best thing ever.

But I think that is all, not a very exciting post, maybe I will make a picture post later.

OH OMG, okay so I have been having these intense feelings that I am going to die or something. I don't know. It is so weird. Hm..maybe I am psychic?

<3

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[23 Jan 2006|05:42pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

WELLL

Finals this week, as you all know, which totally suck, and I should be majorly studying right now BUT all my stuff is in my mom's car and she is not here, so I am completely enjoying the fact that I can't study. So yeah..

I just got back from my first day at my first job, which is feeding tennis balls at 10/hr and it was so much fun. I was completely horrible and the balls went everywhere they weren't supposed to go and it was really bad but i was cracking up the whole time so yeah. It was fun.

I can't wait for this week to be over and then I can go to the desert and it will be wonderful. I am oh so excited. I know Alli, I am always gone...but some weekend that I am not I will let you know.

I am so pumped for prom, you do not even know, it is going to be so sweet even though it is so far away.

My room is a disaster.

And I am surprisingly in a good mood after one of the most stressful days of my life, but no worries it will probably end soon when I have a reality check of all that I have to do before Wednesday.

Ahh, I get my license on Friday (that is if I pass )

Andy Roddick lost on Saturday, I am sad.

YAY

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[07 Jan 2006|11:42am]
[ mood | content ]

I am absolutely amazed. I am updating again. Wow.

Nothing new, went to dinner with Elizabeth and V yesterday. It was nice except La Casetta had NO Ice cream. We were like "What?!"

1. I really want to see Pride and Prejudice. Reallly, really bad.

2. I realy want it to snow, but I have this weird gut feeling that it won't

3. I really want to go to the desert.

4. I really want to pass my drivers test...I made my appt!

5. I really feel like a really bad friend. I have neglected so many friendships that I used to have. I want it to be 8th grade again so so bad.
SO here are some pictures from the good old daysCollapse )

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Rain [02 Jan 2006|08:33am]
[ mood | sick ]

Yay, its raining (more like a sprinkle/mist) and I love it. Although on Thurs and Fri the high is supposed to be 80 something.

I haven'tupdated in awhile, nothing unusual about that.

Lets see, my Christmas break

I had a few days at home before we had a 6:00 AM flight to Colorado. There for about a week, got home late Mon night, left early the next morning for Glamis, for those of you who don't know, its the desert. THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN, it was crazy, being that there was over 200,000 people out there. I need to take every single one of you and more out to the desert, you all need to experience it.

I was sad because I didn't meet Colleen who was down over break!

GUESS WHAT

After over a year, I have finally put some of the finishing touches on my room. I still have a few things to do, but I am almost doneeee.

Oh yeah, I am sick. Not so fun, but it is nice to curl up on the couch, drinking tea while it is raining (sort of) and watching TV. I just wish the feeling crappy part of it would go away.

Homework today, also not so fun. I am in denial that we have school tomorrow, I am just going to stop talking about it....too...painful

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[10 Nov 2005|09:56pm]
[ mood | good ]

AHHH, I haven't updated in soooo long!!! I am so bad at this. Well, being that I don't have a lot of time to update (what's new) I will have to hurryy.

Whats new? (Well being that almost all of my friends on LJ I see basically everyday you prob already know BUT)

Lets seee, I was so excited, today me and michelle won the League Championship doubles final, so that was really cool. I am really tired though, and really hungry. We go to CIF on Mon and I am oh so excited. And I was thinking, I just recently watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Love it sooo much Alli) and I realized that a really good friend would probably call to find out how I did on the biggest tennis match I have ever played in my life, and maybe even come watch. But not even that, maybe call? Am I wrong thinking that? Because no one called or anything. I don't know...

On a sadder note (I guess) I am packing (that's why I don't have much time) to go to Bishop for my grandfather's funeral. I am not looking forward to it. Not because I am sad, because I know that he was sick and unhealthy and unhappy, but because my mom is going to be really sad and everyone will be crying and that makes me sad because I want everyone to always be happy. Life kinda sucks sometimes.

Okay, so I don't update in two months and now I am updating with the most depressing entry of my life. Hmmm

I want to go shopping soo bad.

I want to see Gav in concert soo bad

I want to be at broomball right now soo bad.

Gotta love it!

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Baby I'm Back yeah [09 Sep 2005|06:15pm]
[ mood | blank ]

Okay, so its been a really, really long time since I last updated. Let's see, I could tell you what has been going on in the last month or however long it has been but I see almost all of you and my life isn't that exciting.

School's hard. Elizabeth, I don't know how you are still alive right now. I could never have the dedication you have. I love physics and history and I am so so glad I am not taking AP Lit, I just can't do reading.

Tennis is so much fun and I am so glad that our team is actually good and that some certain people who I will not name aren't there anymore and much better people have taken their place. So that is good.

I really wanted to go to the football game tonight but NO ONE IS GOING and I am so sad right about now. So basically I will be at home...maybe clean my room or do my homework, which is about the MOST FUN way I can think to spend my time on a Friday night, I am such a party animal I can't even stand it.

I have a tennis tournament tomorrow, fun fun fun, being that I am probably going to lose, but don't tell anyone I said that because my coach would just about bite my head off. But I had a lesson today and my brain just about exploded with all the things I have to remember to do tomorrow when I am playing. I think I am going to make a list and then carry it in my pocket. Haha, "Um, excuse me girl, can you just hold up on your serve a minute, I need to read my little paper" SO CUTE

But yes, all in all life is good EXCEPT my withdrawls from Alli and Elizabeth , haven't quite gotten used to that. It makes me cry, I try to avoid thinking about it, it causes me pain

Love y'all and hopefully I will update soon

Okay, my world just came crashing down, I wanted so so bad to get together with Alli tonight but I can't because I have a tourny tomorrow. I am so sad I don't think I will live through the night, seriously.

TGIF

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[15 Aug 2005|08:53pm]
[ mood | awake ]

So I am finally updating! I know, craz-yy.

First, today was, like, exercise mania. First Elizabeth and I played tennis for an hour and a half, we played both singles, and then doubles with Kristen and Michelle. Then, we ran 2.8 miles and walked another mile. And then we pretty much died. So that's cool. And tomorrow we have tennis tryouts, not really looking forward to it because Dave is insane and likes watching us run in the heat, although it hasn't been to hot, which is really nice because its a change from the hot, humid heat we have been having. I REALLY, REALLY hope Elizabeth makes varsity, and I know she will if this Mimi girl doesn't show up, which I really hope she doesn't.

Second, registration today (I realize this update is very similar to Elizabeth's BUT that's okay) and I am not looking forward to school, but it was nice to see everyone again. Okay, I am posting my schedule even though I know that most of you (my like 5 friends I have) are registering on Wednesday. But anyways:
1 H PreCalculus
2 P English 11
3 P French 3
4 H Hon Physics
5 AP Am History
6 Girls Tennis

So pretty much I am slacking in English but that's okay. Let me know if we have any classes together, yeah?

I will try to update more often, try being the keyword, no promises! I will see you all in a few weeks, if I don't die tomorrow or wed. or thurs. Yeah

ADIOS

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[07 Aug 2005|11:49am]
[ mood | sore ]

Welcome to the Lolipoppers

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The Lolipoppers [05 Aug 2005|08:56am]
[ mood | blah ]

I got back yesterday from Camp Emmaus. It was really fun and I got to meet a lot of people and I got to know people better from our church so I had a great time but I am tres glad that I am home and I got to sleep in my own bed last night.

I just got back from my 7:30 accupuncture appt. which was just great and hopefully my last one.

I am so sad to say that I don't have any pictures, not one. I am really bad about that. Okay, more exciting update later!

Oh, P.S. I hear that Jake and Kirsten are back together, *cryy

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[31 Jul 2005|10:05pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Well, as you know, I got back from vacation on Friday afternoon and after a million loads of laundry and some last minute packing I am leaving tomorrow for Camp Emaus, which is this camp with my church and has something to do with leadership, but I don't know. I am looking forward to it because none of my close friends are going (not that that is a GOOD thing) but I think it will be nice to get to know some people better that go to my church because since a lot of my friends go to St. Peter's, I usually spend my time with them, so I am really excited. I will talk to you in a week!

Mal

P.S. I am doing a bloody good job at writing boring journal entries (NOTE: the use of the word bloody, I am reading Harry Potter and I feel like talking like a Brit)

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[29 Jul 2005|03:16pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Okay, first:
Alli, THANK YOU FOR MY INTEREST'S, they are wonderful....

Second:
So I just got back from my vaca which was up near Mammoth and it was really fun. I know you guys don't want to know what I did BUT I am going to have to tell you anyway.
Saturday: We left at 7:00 a.m. and drove to Bishop, and I drove all the way there (5 hours) and then we went up to this campsite that was kind of ugly but w/e, then we rented a boat and went out on a lake but it was really cold and there was tons of mosquitos
Sunday: We went to Lake Sabrina and took a 4-mile hike that was really pretty but somehow uphill both ways
Monday: We left and went to this other campsite that was really pretty and small. My dad got a fish hook stuck in his nose (There's a picture of it but its kind of gross) Don't ask me how he got it there but yeah so we spent most of the day in Mammoth at the hospital, great fun
Tuesday: We went up to June Lake and a bunch of other lakes that all look the same, but were really pretty
Wednesday: We went to Redlands National park or something like that and took a hike to Rainbow Falls and Devil's Postpile
3 AM Thursday morning: We woke up to a bear that was breaking into our motor home and he attacked my brother, no I am just kidding, um a bear came and opened our ice chest which we accidentally left outside and was making a ton of noise, he drank all our soda and ate a few apples. He left but came back and I saw him through the window and he was HUGE probably like 400-500 lbs.
Thursday: Visited with family who live in Bishop and just kind of relaxed, We went to this place that is kind of famous for their pies, and got some. They were soooo good.
Friday morning: left for home

Okay, so this is pretty much the most boring entry ever posted, so sorry.

P.S. If you have ever been camping, you know that you pretty much look like crap so that along with the fact that I am not very photogenic makes some very scary pictures. Haha

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